As a high school senior, I was filled with ambition and dreams about entering the film industry and possibly soaring to success by winning an Oscar (or more). But as I drink my coffee and watch the sunrise through my peripherals on the morning after the 97th Academy Awards, I can write that I did not watch even ten minutes of last night’s ceremony. In fact, as I drifted off to sleep at an hour that would have shocked my younger self, aware that I was missing updates on who took home the highest honors on Hollywood’s most celebrated night, I simply said to myself: “I don’t care.”
I think I reached this state of mind leading up to last night because I had no interest in the nominees. 2023 was an exciting time for movies with the Barbenheimer phenomenon. And beyond the movies, the Oscars were entertaining with Ryan Gosling performing “I’m Just Ken” and John Mulaney comedically recapping the plot of Field of Dreams instead of reading the teleprompter for the category he was presenting. But even with the movies that I did watch (A Complete Unknown, Wicked, Nosferatu, etc.) I could not motivate myself to watch the additional nominees (such as The Brutalist for its 214 minute runtime and Emilia Pérez being the target of online trolls). My devotion to the host, Conan O’Brien, was the only incentive to watch the ceremony. Expecting the show to start momentarily at 8PM, I was shocked to learn it had already begun at 7. Knowing that I had missed more than half an hour, I decided to simply catch the recaps on YouTube in the morning.
But overall, I believe this was the result of learning the in’s and out’s of the entertainment industry; not just by getting involved in media production over the years, but listening to the podcast Armchair Expert as A-listers recount their experiences of the procedures to being booked as guests on Letterman. How many celebrities have shared that they quickly learned money and fame did not give them lasting happiness? There are also the numerous celebrity encounters I have had while working in the hotel industry. When you see actors standing in front of you that you grew up watching, they are no longer two-dimensional and elevated on a big screen. They were often shorter than me, so I would be looking down at them. And, above all, I learned that privacy for a celebrity is akin to water in a desert. I believe the best way to describe this is that the veil of fame had been torn. Celebrities are not glamorous and wealthy as they appear in paparazzi shots or Access Hollywood or on the red carpet. They are working people just like us, but the cameras are always following them because we are interested in them.
In my youth, my goal was to win an Oscar simply because it could vindicate me while I held onto what was left of the popularity contest mentality. Being socially awkward is incredibly difficult at a young age when you and your peers share a cutthroat mentality about being cool. Knowing that I was creative and a talented writer, I believed that “making it” as a filmmaker would be what remedied my insecurities and would actually allow me to get back at those who were not respectful towards me. It turns out I did not need fame and accomplishments to get their respect. Life did that for me.
I also previously wrote in 2020 how I came to determine that the Oscars were not the ultimate metric on good or bad movies. I have often pointed out that, while Best Picture winners have included Casablanca, Lawrence of Arabia, Amadeus, and Schindler’s List; Citizen Kane was famously snubbed and Martin Scorsese’s only win came with The Departed, not with his signature masterpieces GoodFellas, Raging Bull, or Taxi Driver. In recent years, Steven Spielberg lamented that Christopher Nolan’s iconic 2008 Batman film, The Dark Knight, was not considered worthy of a Best Picture nomination because it was an adaptation of a comic book and a box office success. Spielberg even noted that we have a social need to be together, and movies truly are a way to accomplish that. There has always been “Oscar Bait” that has been rooted in a prude mentality that only dry period dramas are worthy of being considered the better movies because the public cannot appreciate them. I was beyond exhilarated at the age of 13 when The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King took home the Best Picture Oscar (the only fantasy film to do so until The Shape of Water received the top prize at the 90th Academy Awards), and over the years I have had to pinch myself as a reminder that an action fantasy movie could really be considered the best movie of the year. When overwhelmingly popular movies are worthily nominated at the Academy Awards, it feels like something worthy of keeping up with, as if it were sports playoffs.
But I cannot simply write off the Oscars as a whole simply because the nominees were nothing to be excited about… at least in my opinion at this moment. Simply put: some seasons have smaller harvests. Perhaps in the coming years we will have more award seasons to look forward to?
This year, I hope to catch a new movie every week in an effort to be properly caught up when award season comes around. I at least know I have one date set on my calendar: July 17, 2026, when Christopher Nolan releases his adaptation of The Odyssey by Homer. I certainly think that a year and four months is enough time to re-read the blind bard’s epic before the names Odysseus, Telemachus, and Polyphemus are being referenced left and right.































